Let's vintage!

!Sunday, July 29, 2007

@ 11:37 PM

so suave! zac efron.

which is nicer? oh boy wonderwoman's so sexy!

!Wednesday, July 25, 2007

@ 12:59 AM

le sigh.

!Monday, July 16, 2007

@ 1:44 AM

sometimes i look at life and i go... DAMN.

i guess these few days have been one of them. why do people rear their ugly heads in moments of urgency? in life, one of the most horrifying things to see is the people's malice.

why do we have to be exposed to people's vices? it's such a disgusting sight. and unfotch, i've seen many of these people's umm sides this week. sigh.

i guess i'll never be happy even when i choose to look at people's better face than currently, for i'll always know that that side of everyone still exist, and i feel sad. i do have an ugly side too.

but isn't it better to be the flasher than to be flash at?

!Tuesday, July 10, 2007

@ 11:50 PM

i played in the lion's mouth just now.

thank goodness i'm still well and alive!

!Monday, July 09, 2007

@ 9:27 PM

many things happen today... it was the submission of plans.

i felt many emotions today. which was weird, nothing like you can get from going to *escape (theme park) or anything.

in the morning, i felt helpless.
irritated.
painful.
panicky.
and then i started laughing hysterically.
evil.
anger.
guilt.
yearn.
remorse.

i felt many emotions today. it was pretty weird. what happened was that me van xy jp and yuhui couldn't finish our stuff. around 3pm, we got pretty high because we were supposed to print our work in fugging a1 size and we couldn't finish.

and 4pm was he submission. the lecturers are very nit-picking about the submission and they'll do dramatic things like locking the door 10mins before submission and stuff. which is like, stupid. fucked-up people.

so at 3.40pm, me vanz n xy rushed downstairs to print our stuff only to find the whole room filled with panicky designers wannabes fighting over the printer. oh it was a long wait in there, and we clinched the FIRST, the FIRST time the small 1.8m room has so many people in there.

with 15mins left to closure of submission (note here that non-submission entitles us to a nice big ZERO), we decided to go up and take our wallets for lunch/dinner, probably in time before they fucking lock the doors.

what can be worse, being locked outside without our wallets? what did they expect us to do, wait outside like puppies on a leash waiting to be release?

so we got a non-submission and went to brunch with a heavy heart on our stomaches. poor vanessa started crying but yinn and me were pretty numbed. fortunately weiqiang was there to keep making us laugh. weiqiang is the best lah, he's so funny. i just wish he'ld hang out with us more.

when we got back there was a briefing for us. the lecturers took turns to give their 5 cents worth of salt rubbing, which is like, damn. fucked up people always build sandcastles in the air. and fked-up ppl always manage to manipulate and push the blame to other people.

while today is my fault for not being able to complete, i think i did all that i could. with my recurring backaches. even salonpas cannot save me now.

so they asked for our on-the-spot feedback of which, i'm pretty surprised that cheekeong didn't complain. i'm planning to write a good descriptive feedback online. it'll be the first time i write with such zest.

performance is when the environments are right. no badminton player can play well with lousy rackets. no builders can build well without the right mix of cement. no pool players can play well without a straight cue. don't give me that adaptable shit. we can be adaptable, but scoring well comes with the right help. not only from ourselves.

in the midst of this mini hurricane, i neglected meiliang and i felt super guilty. today i asked her out but she was being dragged away by her classmate. poor meiliang. i'm really sorry!

so with this it marks the end of my today.

as i sat there, i saw you and i remembered what a good relationship we used to have, and suddenly it reminds me why we drew apart. i miss you guys. i do not believe anymore that distance doesn't play a part in weaving people together. why do things have to go this way, i miss the good times we have. just so you know i have done my best to be a good friend, whether i have hurt you it wasn't my intention so, but till this moment it still stings me with bad memories of what you told me.

i never thought i would resort to sneakiness, but, to someone. although we weren't playing nice, it is better to reflect about it before feeling that way. i have gone thru something like that before, and it changed me. but i've learnt and move on, i hope you can do so too, and we'll still be good friends chatting away till late on msn. i still remember the things you have done for me, and i'm forever grateful to it.

it's funny how this 2 people are so connected.

!Monday, July 02, 2007

@ 1:16 AM

i think i have not done an entry in quite a long time. my interest wanes easily. but to date i think this is the longest blog i have ever ever own. used to have many short-lived loves.

something happened to me recently, it struck me bad and i cried for a few hours. although i think a few girls was crying too at that time but i was crying for a slightly different reason. and i'm really sorry. and nobody was there at that time to hold my hand and say "it's ok, everything's going to be alright". i felt very stranded and lonely. and it's all my fault.

emo talk. i vaguely dislike the word 'emo'. just reminded me of stupid paul2hill. teen angst sounds better to me. guys who call themselves 'emo' especially. one emo guy is worse than 10girls having pms put together.

i'm gonna post some random photos i have.