!Friday, August 31, 2007
@ 8:53 AM
changed my mind... although it's 10bucks and it's BLUE and has a nice logo, but..
- there's no sizes for guys (i.e. junhao won't have one)
- i think it suits chunzheng more
- if i add this to my collection it'll just make my wardrobe vomit out all the teeshirts that i own in protest
- my dear meiliang bought a tee for me n junhao from KL (a classic fake ralph polo hohoho)
- the waiting period for it to arrive is agonizing!
when it come to excuses nothing beats jj... and i have just successfully brainwashed myself. or so i think.
so to ease my troubled mind, i'm going for retail therapy when i'm free! everyone and me are liars, retail therapy does not work. but it's the perfect excuse no?
!Wednesday, August 29, 2007
@ 8:26 PM
i'm gonna shamlessly shout "PLEASE BUY THIS FOR ME!!"
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@ 5:49 PM
courage
i was staring into space thinking about my lil heartaches and then i thought of how timid i am... i do wish for courage many a time, the courage to turn away from pain, the courage to walk away from time. all i need is just that one little step to get it going. i guess i'm a lil bit further than that lil step now, but i do feel so wishy-washy like charlie brown.
creating success... make it happen, not let it happen.
i went for a bellydance class yesterday... i think i've really found my calling! that is the time when i don't feel under pressure under tons of fat-free craze ladies, and dance away freely to the music and have a good laugh about it. my dear ahbao and vans came along too, and we kept laughing. but we dance good! xy overslept. badbad ;)
you know what, i have often thought about how going through puberty makes girls relook on their self esteem and self love. while self love is a very vague term to describe gazillion of things, one of it would include taking a rain check on how much we appreciate ourselves and accept ourselves for who we are. finding someone who loves and accepts you for who you are and not someone they want you to be is important too. i will always remember it in my heart.
philosophy.
i grew an interest to philosophy 2 years ago and interestingly enough, were made to study it this year in one of my modules. while my thoughts weren't as profound as james's, i'm occasionally trapped in the brain by one question. what is the world to me, am i part of everything that exist as an entirety or am i just an individual unique being that is just me in this world and the world is made up of everything unique?
i supposed we could combine the two and says that "i'm an unique being and i'm part of this world as a whole". but that wouldn't make sense as much as asking "is black or white nicer?" and the answer is "grey". methinks "i'm an unique being", at least in singapore anyways.
if i were to marry, i would think that a tattoo of a ring etched in my finger would makes the saying "till death do us apart" will make more sense. ahhh. love is a strange thing. so is jj.
how many fingers do you have???
8! and 2 thumbs!
They say the devil's water, it ain't so sweet
You don't have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while
!Tuesday, August 28, 2007
@ 10:18 AM
together we are invincible..
!Monday, August 27, 2007
@ 10:43 PM
Look at this!!! a very cute winged bag!
and this! (reminds me of loewe's napa aire bag)
and THIS!!!! wheee!
this is the ultimate!
heartsvictoriasecret!
!Sunday, August 26, 2007
@ 2:20 AM
today's post's gonna be a wee bit boring so... keep strapped in ur seats my dear friends.
ok let's talk about chunzheng's birthday.. we went to marina and had dinner at yukiandyaki which happens to be a japanese steamboat buffet thing. i then proceed to devour all prawns in sight and cook some for meiliang and lily. all of us had our own little cooking territory in the hot pan and we cooked for each other. all except poor chuxiang, who was stucked in the extreme end of the side and had nothing to cook or eat except to drink water.
after that it was pretty late, say 10. so we walked to the top of marina square and in the open and we sung a birthday song for chunzheng and he cut the cake. then me meiliang and chunzheng went to the toilet and went to 7eleven to get some booze to celebrate his independence. i got the jollyshandi for junhao and chuxiang and an unclesingha for meself. baa. chunzheng got some alcohol in red and we went up. the alcohol in red tasted like the medicine from polyclinic, the singha doesn't taste very well and the jollyshandi was meant for chuxiang-the-easily-drunk. me thinks heineken taste better. :D
then chuxiang was wounded in the ego for having that reputation so the boys went down to get more booze. and then chunzheng and chuxiang got drunk. so we saved money on movie tickets because we watched them got high. hahahaa. chunzheng whacked chuxiang on the head with the topman white jeans and cx doesn't seem to know what has happened. both of them seem to have been knocked senseless.
a good 18th birthday nonetheless, ended with glamour booze. junhao drank pretty much and he turned burning red! but he wasn't drunk :D so wasn't me, meiliang, nigel, lily and ben.
i started this entry with the intention of saying "we celebrated cz's birthday" but i ended up with this.
for my birthday, i'm toying with the idea of having a children party at macdonald's, get a makeover and hit the clubs at night. grand idea eh :D
!Friday, August 24, 2007
@ 3:46 PM
heeheehee slacking again.
my both in charge are on leave, so i have to pretend to be busy now. if not i scared they throw "sai kang" (shitty assignments) on me. geez.
my colleagues are very friendly. everyday will have people come up and introduce themselves to me de. and it's very nice because i'm shy and stopped taking initiative since i went sec 3.
i thought i would have to skip lunch today because my incharge is sick and my mini boss is on a business trip. my big boss is very handsome and looks very young and muscular (i thought he was 28) but his daughter is the same age as me! so when lunch time came, my colleague ask me out to lunch with everyone else. so i went. and i was delighted. :D
i was just talking to chisuen online and i realise he logged off. i still remember... it was excruciating but it's past behind now...
i feel like packing my bag and running off now lah! but i can't because i've done that yesterday and saw aaron at marina -.o . must be a GOOD worker!
funny i should take about daily stuff. i've a lot of things to muse but i forgot everything. i'm looking forward to later, when i can see meiliangdear junhaodear chuxiangpoliceman chunzhengbirthdayboy lilydear benjunjielook-alike and the rest later! i hope you like the grey jeans junhao, we hope you like the white jeans chunzheng. and i can only wear affordable grey jeans due to the above mentioned 2 privileged teens!
ya i'm quite sick of wearing pants man, i'm supposed to wear long pants, jeans etc while working. give me back my dress!!!
One day, jianping changed my life and i saw the whole world in a different eye since then... sometimes i'm confused, but sometimes i'm glad.
working class hero
!Thursday, August 23, 2007
@ 10:52 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JUDY!
yes yes i'm really really sinful, for forgetting to get YOU a blow-up doll. le sigh. as of now you can be as free as the bird you have always want to be and drink like a fish without being bothered! geez. i still have a long way to go. anyways, i hope you have enjoyed ur birthday nonetheless! hugs!!!
speaking of which, happy birthday chunzheng! i was flipping through tapestry the other day and i saw how everyone have grown so much! and i saw junhao in our class photo and don't know why i feel very weird. i've always felt that i've known him from outside instead of westwood. strange.
and chunzheng have grown so much to become the indie geek that he is today! very handsome, very well-dressed, very thin also. basket, last time he weigh only one more kg than me! and he's like so tall, taller than junhao.
i shall not be petty about that fact that he didn't turn up for MY birthday last year and give him a good one this year!
!Tuesday, August 21, 2007
@ 10:24 AM
"eating snake" again...
pay is not too bad, food is good, colleagues are nice, transport is provided. what more can i ask for?
although it's a tad bit tiring... but it's ok, it's a good job.
last paper meiliang! do well for today! ;)
!Monday, August 20, 2007
@ 4:35 PM
aaah... first day at work. not too bad i suppose, keep eating snakes and dozing off. hee.
the food is super cheap and nice lah!!!!
my lunch cost me : 65cents today
i ate rice with sotongs and gravy and veggies. and total is 65cents!
i then proceed to buy drinks, which cost me 20cents for a packet drink. this is better than primary school lah!
and i didn't slumped in the smelly hot canteen just because the food is nice and afforable. nope. the "canteen" looks like the mini club with the balls of lights located beside jurong point. what is that called, the centris?
anyways, i had to walk past the production site before i get to the office and in the production site mini car-like robots move around carrying their own things. gee.
continued
i'm off to bed! gotta wake up early for the transport pick-up tml!
!Sunday, August 19, 2007
@ 3:24 AM
and yet another day in the size 5 shoes of miss yip...
today i went out with meiliangdear, junhaodear and chuxiang the policeman. i was wearing the miss chatterbox tee and yakking away happily with liang while the boys clammered over meiliang's n80 (checking soccer scores, what else).
so we travelled all over orchard today! we talked and talked and talked and didn't shopped much. and ate! lots of tiny things. i had so much fun today. (: geez.
we were supposed to get this white jeans to make chunzheng look all handsome for his birthday which falls on 25 aug! i planned many "failed" ones this year so i hope chunzheng's one will be fun for him. although he didn't celebrate my birthday with me last year.
i think i just farted and intoxicated myself. sigh.
and lily got me really adorable mickey mouse keychain and pen from hongkong disneyland and i'm so touched and happy! i love it when people give me things that i like and i keep them for very long and use them alot. like the adidas jacket my classfriends gave me!
i just read joc's entry on her belongings in the bag and curiously i took a look at mine. baaa. i dare not breathe out the contents.
i'm famous for stopping people in their tracks. yes, i'm not boasting. it always happen when i search in panic for my ezlink card at the mrt border with impatient students behind me, probably taking imaginary stabs on my back while i flushed in embarrassment.
today's muse is pretty lighthearted eh. ;) oy!
!Wednesday, August 15, 2007
@ 10:50 AM
it is today that i found the song stand by me - oasis is exceptionally true to the broken spirit that i found myself posessing now.
Made a meal and threw it up on Sunday
I`ve -Got a lot of things to learn
Said I would and I believe in one day
Before my heart starts to burn
So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new... don't you know
The cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door
So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new... don't you know
That cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows, yeah, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
If you're leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I could never give you
My heart will never be your home
So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new... don't you know
That cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows, yeah, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
The way it's gonna be, yeah
Baby, I can see, yeah... don't you know
That cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand By Me - nobody knows, yeah, God only knows the way it's gonna be
Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door
!Tuesday, August 14, 2007
@ 9:58 PM
so, i finished my crit today, with a big relief, as useless thoughts of negativity vibrated throughout my brain last night.
it wasn't that bad after all. really. except for some stuttering (probably as a result of the lecturer J's sacarstical remarks). they were quite pleased by my drawings.
come everyone, "phew" for me.
well it would have went better if some of my closer friends were there too. aahhh i've learnt to move on.
this week i've been trekking all over Singapore for job interviews, going to weird places, places i never thought it existed. the other day i went to raffles place for a place at great eastern assurance. i was late, wearing crappy school slacks and all sweaty from finding the place. much to my embarrassement 3 people was seated in the room patiently waiting for me. and so the interview begun...
it was a killer interview alright. i was required to talk about my career pospects, life goals, social and personal skills etc. thank goodness i had all these etched in my mind and wallpaper. so, wham! i was done.
and i was informed today that the interviewers didn't killed me, i sabotaged myself because i gave the wrong date which i can start work. which means i could have had the job. argh. then i walked from raffles place to have lunch at clarke quay then walked over to chinatown to sight see. it was fun! geez.
so today dear junhao accompanied me to this chinatown place where the agency is at for an interview. and i saw "la sup" (dirty in cantonese) salon for gents and shady old men! wahahaa. if not for junhao i think i would not have dared went into the Fook Hai Building. it was seriously shady.
after the interview we walked around and fall upon this place in the middle of raffles place chinatown and marina square. i think it was near lau pa sat. we ate at the old chang kee cafe. hahaaa. it was so strange. and the chicken curry was so superb!
if not for junhao again i would not have gained innocent kgs. i was slimmer in secondary school
:(
so next to old change kee i saw a O.P.I shop! oh boy i was so happy. the interior was so beautiful, with no human beings in sight. it was a futuristic shop engraved into a rustic charming victorian building. oh boy.
then junhao got impatient of me staring at the shop so we took a bus to suntec. and he bought me a pair of pink heels! very pretty, very pretty. thanks ya dear junhao.
after awhile we took a bus home and he was late for his duty! sorry! my fault.
it was a busy day with the crit, the interview and the shopping and sight seeing amidst the stressful job employers calling me non-stop. i've ran out of saliva so i'm not talking tonight.
alrites, i'm out. gonna work tomorrow at sentosa! ;)
!Saturday, August 11, 2007
@ 12:46 AM
have you ever experienced an out of the world feeling?
!Friday, August 10, 2007
@ 2:12 AM
speaking of jude,
a hot hot hot jude law!
many don't appreciate an old man. but, handsome old man exist! just look at sting.
away with zac efron! he wears way too much make-up. baah. and dates his co-star vanessa hudgens. double baah.
there should be a law stating all handsome actors should not date. i don't mind gays. ;)
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@ 1:42 AM
i found the incovenience of not being to talk to jude at her blog and the rather embarassement of rambling to myself at my own tagboard. so here i am, putting this entry to good use.
somehow it just gets boring when i read about what people blog about, what they do everyday etc. it probably goes like, i took a poop! well, i nearly take a splint to the toilet just now, but i was too busy so i hold it in. yes, i'm very disgusting. has anyone heard of people dying from constipation problems?
when i was younger, my dad used to worry all the time if i have took a poop and not constipate for so long. till now he still does. except less frequently i supposed. he'ld freaked if i tell him now.
and my mom. she worries when she sees me watching cartoons. she goes, "i scared you become cartoon." then my sister will laugh so hard and say my mom's weird. one day she saw me watching spongebob on youtube. many days actually. then she shakes her head and worry. i haven't told her i'm going to watch the simpsons. 2 possible reactions will follow if i tell her that. "last time i always let you watch this on tv." or "this one is last time we watch together and you like it very much one right?". in chinese of course. my parents still remember TMNT. they remembered it better than me.
i like lisa simpson the most. and krusty the klown! hahaa. marge simpson looks like someone's mom. i can't tell. =X
oh! this entry was about judy. i knew judy since secondary school and through mahjong sessions i got to know her better, even though i didn't play at all. junhao has always made fun of her and chinyee (and me!). chuxiang also, even though chuxiang quite quiet. so chuxiang and junhao both got into police, and both got stationed at jurong area.
actually, it's really lucky for junhao. imagine you and your best friend in the same police academy and keeping in contact is just a distance away! and both posted to jurong division after their 3 months stay. so heng right! actually, junhao went in after chuxiang went in for 3 months, but chuxiang have to stay in for 3 more months! so they both graduated at the same time.
so where was i. yes, chuxiang told me if he ever see chinyee and judy he'ld stop them and screen them on the spot. so funny la. lucky me, if junhao and chuxiang do that to me i'ld probably pinch them on the spot or something. call police also no use ma. they ARE the police. le sigh. judy will probably murder them on the spot. right jude ;)
so judy, why you nv post this picture of the guy's face! i wanna see larh. hahaa. should be of very good calibre de.
i think you have more of a phlegmatic personality. i just finished my psychology and counselling gems! so we have to study about this 4 kinds of temperments. you will do well as an accountant or an auditor. hahaa. coincidentally i thought about junhao's temperment. and i couldn't think of a suitable one, maybe sanguine. he told me he took a test ytd. and the results? all equal on all temperments!!! so weird right. i can't figure that out.
i've learnt that personalities are changable, but temperments are innate.
i'm hoping jude will reinstate ur tagger but i'm crossing my fingers on this one.
me junhao and james his lil k2 bro are going to sentosa this saturday and i'm so happy! i kept making him hold my hand the last time. he's really cute!
p/s: judy arh can go in eskibar one la, i went before. not underage one.
!Monday, August 06, 2007
@ 2:53 AM
sometimes, the more i do design, the more my impatience runs higher. gah.