!Tuesday, April 29, 2008
@ 12:32 AM
i think my eyesight increase drastically lehs, i can't read properly now. i thought it was the lack of sleep.. but no. argh if it jumps back to 500 i think i will rest for many days to come.
hate the workload!!!!
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@ 12:23 AM
out of a sudden burst of an unknown nerve i feel like getting 6 pac abs like those that zoe tay has. power!
of everything i'm afraid of in my exterior body there is nothing more scary than a budging and flabby tummy. it has been that way since secondary school days or for as long as i can remember (my thinking i mean, not my tummy).
now looking at my budging (or slightly, or not -.-) i have this impulse to go running and train train train till i get a super super tight and hard rock tummy. call me obsessive, but i really like it. hahaha.
to the main point. zoe tay abs! i'm so gonna train for it.
detailed action plan soon wahhahahaaa.
!Monday, April 28, 2008
@ 2:03 AM
my sister often say, my friendster is like my personal hard disk of pictures. oh it's so true. it goes the same to my blog too. :)
sperry!
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@ 12:37 AM
on school
school as usual, has me labelled a busy lady by everyone around me. nevertheless, i'm finally done with my freelance rendering, and complete my 3 of a kind 0.008m3 wooden models.
first we use blutack, which me and shaojie was stupid enough to use, then having a difficult time tearing it out. jonathan was saying "blutack can be sticky, you have to stretch it and make it warm, then it will be very sticky". dirty jokes aside, i can imagine him smiling to himself when playing with blutack. shudders.
i was quite stupid to complete all 3 model to that size, because i saw many small models during submission day.
on GEMS
i'm very very happy to have meiliang with me for my gems. :) we are taking effective logic in argument. do not laugh. it does not mean we are illogical people. when i studied philosophy i had a hard time understanding socrates' explanation of logic. it's a super interesting subject.
meiliang, hua hee dio ho! we won't regret gems won't we :) fought so hard to be together for gems.
on money
in less than a week, i've spent close to 400. crazy crazy crazy. ram boost, charger, fp baggie, clothes. i don't regret, but i'll have to eat bread more often. hahaha. unless i take up that plan elevation section job which will earn me... money at a hefty hefty expense of sleeping time and rest.
argh. have to control have to control. but it feels so good to spend my own money...
anyway, speaking of ram boost, i'm really graetful to the guys who took the trouble of accompanying me to funan and make sure i get bang for my buck. i'm touched.
!Monday, April 14, 2008
@ 8:25 PM
first day, 2008
senior year
this morning i woke up with an uneasy feeling, so i snucked up beside my mom and we chatted before i went to school. it feels good, talking to her took off a bit of uneasiness off my chest. it wasn't the kind of uneasy feeling that i got from eating too much steamboat, it's more of the chest uneasy feeling. har.
so we went for hours of lecture today. very fierce, 6 hours worth of lecture. the school system cock up again! our timetable is in a mess.
i felt kind of uneasy in school too.. even more so when i saw that someone.. sigh. i was all over the place today, spending time with nearly everyone. it's all good.
in tod lecture, manish brought up how superheroes in marvel comics always go to a secret place to transform into their alter ego, then they come out a different person and they save the world. it is this transition space which is so special, nobody sees it, but it happens. it's kind of amazing isn't it? it's kind of like how we bathe, a ritual but essentially special.
while i may not be a total marvel comics fan, i was thinking about snoopy and charles m schulz when manish was talking about philosophy. charles m schulz is more of "life philosophy". and tezuka osamu (astro boy), another deep thinker. he describe places that nobody sees, but feels it in times of urgency. of all the comics i read, astro boy is probably the one with the most hidden meanings.
so what is this transition space that we encounter daily but never felt it? i just thought of one. when i'm walking to the mrt station everyday, i experience a personal transitional space. when i'm sitting in the bus alone, i see everyone but goes unnoticed.
hope to get this very uncomfortable feeling off my chest asap. groans. it's almost like a premonition.
!Wednesday, April 02, 2008
@ 10:55 PM
As the sophomore year draws closer to an end, i can't help but feel a tinge of reluctance to leave everything behind. What will our final year together be like? Will we be good friends forever?Can everyone pursue their own happiness in their career path? So many questions, yet to answer.
My sophomore year was pretty sweet, i got to know everyone more and am good friends with most of my classmates. And made new closer friends. While my studies have taken a toll for the bad, my impression of the school's system and lecturers have changed. As it may have been possibly corrupted, i seek to venture my own perspective of design instead of listening to the lecturers like a lamb. Mix in a good ear and flair, set to go. Sweet ambitions =)
As the workload in my company gets heavier, my stress level goes up. But today, my boss asked me to take my work laptop and head to funan for a ram boost. I found myself in a mad rush packing my bag and putting away the things, all while instructing vans how to complete the perspective. Good ol' van helped me to finish the work which has been bugging me for days. Alas, it is still unfinished due to some angle issues.
Digressing. I reach funan fairly quickly and went to the camera shop. My mentor and colleague, Janet, and June (da big boss) was trying out some cool camera with big lens. I sat down with them to look at the very expensive camera that i know i will never have a chance to hold, at least for now. Impressive. Photography, being such an expensive hobby, is thankfully made cheap by Photoshop and Image programmes. Learnt an invaluable lesson (for free!) from the seller who was trying to lure my boss for more money. Perspectives, lens filters, colouring.
Photoshop may be an omnipotent tool, but the feel is probably one of the fundamentals. Standing beside June while she gushed over the colours and the filters remind me of a small kid buying candy. Only that this small kid havve wads of money -.- She can feel. I felt it beside her. The small details in the photograph, it all adds up to a wonderful picture. She may be a very difficult person to work with, but i certainly appreciate her keen taste for the finer details.
She took out an envelope, with 5000 cool bucks in the form of $50 capitaland vouchers, to pay for the 2k camera after some haggering (did i spelt it right?). She said it is no fun to leave with some bargaining. Sigh. I admit i was stunned by the vouchers.
So we spent almost an hour in the shop, and went to the other shop to get my ram, which the shop just carefully closed in my face. The salesman who was pulling the shutters looked away carefully when i waved at him. So there goes my ram....
Which means i have to spend my own time to get it, out of work hours. Sian. What an abrupt end to this entry...