happytogather

2011-02-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

so.. what now?

the tree hugger.

2011-01-11T01:51:00.002+08:00

and the rattlesnake said, i wished i had hands so i could hug you like a man.
and then the cactus said, don't you understand, my skin is covered with sharp spikes
that will stab you like a thousand knives.

received something today, in return for my blood. not to mentioned shellshock when i saw it, but i didn't much felt anything until my boss fucked me later on.

it got me thinking, about my low self confidence again, that i was useless and unable to do anything in the office. then my colleague said thank you and for being always there.

always being there, in exchange for my youth. but it's ok, i need to know that i'm growing. it's the only thing which matters, that i hope that one day i will still be young but useful.

2011-01-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

freedom 2011!

just came back from KL, wonderful experience but as usual i missed out on my new year making resolutions, due to procrastination (again).

so i'm going to make my 2011 resolutions now, before it hits mid year. but first, i'm going to tell you about sunday, which is now yesterday.

i had a good sleep and i woke up feeling happy. i hit the snooze button and actually snooze for 3 more hours. it is probably one of the rare times i allow myself to sleep longer and not feel guilty about it. so i woke up, bathed and did my laundry. (mind you, i hand washed everything) it was such a huge pile of clothes from KL and from the time before i left KL that i was waterlogged by the time it was done.

so when i came out (presumably with a bad shoulder ache now), it started raining. the rain didn't spoilt my sunday morning. in fact, i was secretly elated due to the cancellation of my hell-bent resolution to jog (refer to the following resolutions on exercising). so i hung around the house for a bit and went to the indian restaurant near my place for some food alone. did something different for a change, i actually sat down alone and enjoyed my food and the smell of the rain without the need to do anything, except to eat. it was such a good feeling i think i'm going to make it one of my resolutions.

so after that i went back and met zebra, we went to a baby shower and met up with my hubby for dinner. bottom point is, i forgot about my laundry and when i remembered it i ask my sister to hang it up for me, which she replied that the weather is still bad in jurong. so when i got back, i decided to hang it out and the moment i did it started to drizzle again..

had a difficult time bringing in everything quickly and finding space for all the dripping wet clothes, in which some of it has inevitably inherited colorful stains from my new floral jumpsuits. my mom came jumping mad after she discovered i had wet clothes dripping all over the place at BOH.

what a long winded story about boring laundry. where was i... oh yes, my 2011 resolutions. before i procrastinate again, here it goes.

1. fight procrastination. so far so good at work. so far not so good in personal life.

2. continue to bask and breathe in my new-found freedom. if you have to tell me about your i'm-so-happy-being-attached-and-you stories, i have stories to share too.

3. i will eat healthily. and i will do it my way.

4. i will not be tempted by the new lift which is installed directly outside my house and continue to use my staircase diligently. ok, maybe when i'm carrying my barney luggage. and maybe when i'm carrying heavy things. or maybe when i'm late and it happens to be open at my level. HMMM. (on this topic i say AMEN to the new lift, my dad doesn't have to carry his bicycle anymore up and down the staircase)

5. i will not stay back so late in the office uneccessarily. but i will continue to helpful.

6. i resolve to get my own project this year, goddamit.

7. i resolve to be a super stylist.

8. i resolve to immerse myself in more design related industry things, be it museum hopping or skimming through magazines in the library.

9. i'm going to shop more this year. before you naysayers yell, please hear me out. i'm going to go furniture and accessories hunting more often and develop a better eye for details (this is critical, in order to resolve my #7)

10. speaking about an eye for details, i'm going to pay more attention to the industry details at work and i am going to do my best to be a better learner.

11. i will maintain my sanity at work. if i ever have it.

12. i will be neutral at work. like how it is now.

13. i will learn to balance time in my personal life.

14. i will learn 'a thousand miles' on my office's grand piano if i don't get my ass fired this year.

15. i will learn to strum a string or 2 on the guitar.

16. i will tidy up my license.

that's all for now, i don't want to continue writing about resolutions for the sake of making it.

2010-09-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

is it ever right to put expectations on people?

is it ever possible to embrace change, for better or for worse, in whatever your friends do?

i will never know. i don't really care what people do anyway. until they make it my concern.

i only thought about it when you said i have changed. i guess it was your impression of me that changed. it was your impression of me all along, because how can you know me when i don't even understand myself?

it's a strange world.

2010-09-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for quite some time, but many thoughts have passed my mind.

i wonder.

this week is a special week, i stayed home for the weekend. friday night was f1 with ariff, great company and nice performance by missy elliot. then it was working on saturday till 8pm with my director and colleague. and i went home after that to watch the dvd meteor garden which i have bought. it was such a nice feeling since i haven't been watching tv for a few years now.

if only i can get my hands on the whole set of sex and the city dvd.

so i stayed at home today, cooked lunch and snoozed, watch a bit of meteor garden and read some magazines, ordered in mac and did a bit of tidying up. was supposed to have plans with 3 groups of friends today but all got cancelled. oh well. guess it's just like this.

i'm starting to get used to not having you around. and being too busy. learning to be independent. learning to take care of myself when no one is there for me when i'm down. learning to be more amiable. i'm learning to treasure my new found freedom.

and i'm happy.

2010-07-23T00:47:00.002+08:00

as i watch people's lives go by, i often wonder, what does the future contain for us?

about a year ago, i remembered going to the singapore garden festival with yuping, ahbao and weiqiang. despite being the only guy, weiqiang eventually emerge with a pot of plant, contrary to us girls who did not buy anything.

a year later on, this insignificant event paradoxically signified many things. things like how our lives have change and yet remains the same. the boys are still in army, i'm still working and our lives have stayed mundane. my parents still love me the same.

on the other hand, many things have evolved. my ex has found his love. i've lost mine. seen many people getting attached. seen many people breaking up. attended a million birthday parties. attended a million cocktail launches. find emotional stableness in the least unexpected people. lost my youth and health.

what is fulfillment and identity?

2010-07-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

i wish that i'm not busy all the time. i wish that birthday parties are not obligatory. i wish that meeting friends are filled with happiness and not guilt each time i meet them. i hope that i will be better at work. i hope my body can take this. i wish to God that i'm not his entertainment channel.

i'm not a clown.

2010-07-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

sometimes

when people talk to me, all i can see is their mouths opening and closing, like little black holes surrounded by red lines.

i wish i'm alone. i wish the good people who cares for me will stop pressurising me. i wish i can disappear from this world.

and sleep forever.

2010-07-06T01:52:00.002+08:00

when something goes doubly wrong, life definitely gets better when people are there for you.

and it doesn't have to be your boyfriend.

for probably the first time in my life, this feeling struck my heart and i got better. and i grew.

always growing, always knowing that someone has loved you for who you are, accepting every unreasonable flaw you have, fulfilling a small part of your life dream, going all the way to make you feel that your pet peeve is alright.

today,
my boss gave me my 21st birthday present. a fully paid 4 month stay at a condo at holland to myself. blessed by the guan yin ma's designer hand for the interior!

today,
my shoe gave way on the busy train and i wasn't aware that my dress was too sheer. i have an extra outfit in my office but it was mis matching and i felt like shit. my 2 friends promptly gave me a concereige service parcel at 11am. it had: 3 pairs of brand new shoes, 2 belts and a dress for me to mix and match, just so i wouldn't feel like shit wearing my mix matched outfit. their love was contained inside too, which is why my tears and gratitude flowed into the plastic bag as i slowly open all of the small little packages so lovingly prepared.

i will always remember the small things many people have done for me in my life.

how aaron have cried with me when i failed my modules in year 2.
how meiliang used to prepare breakfast for me. how jianping cried because i couldn't see how much my parents loved me.
how my parents love me.
how my sister always thought of me when she saw something that suit me and how she bought it for me so i would cheer up.
how ariff talked with me on the phone till i got home because i was afraid of the dark.
how junhao bought me the crown necklace when we were young even though we were very poor because he knew how long i stared at it.
how carine taught me to learn to let go.
how chinyee stuck by me even though i was shitty.
how vincent stood by me when i was so drunk i couldn't wake up.
how vincent came and packed my things with me when i was fired.
and how my dad always buy bananas for me because he knew i have very bad constipation.
and how many other things that many other people out of their goodwill have unconciously done for me that i will always remember.

this post will be a memory for me to keep, should one day i should forget this world.

2010-02-13T21:33:00.003+08:00

seems like i have not been blogging for quite some time!

nothing much is new, except that time has given us more experience and refinement in our perceptions ;)

recently i had the opportunity to see the mother of all chocolates in my office...

if it is for me i would die... but it was for everyone so that made our day :D

however, i did get a box of nicely wrapped chocolate and organic peppermint tea yesterday on my desk. nicely packaged items always make my day.. especially when it's wrapped with a suede cod and a map. before you get all suspicious, it's from the clients!

if you can't spend valentine's day with your loved ones, the next best thing is to spend it with your other loved ones - friends. i'm very blessed to be able to do that.

2010-02-08T00:06:00.001+08:00

very busy recently.. but i must really say

50 HAIL PRADA

2010-01-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

one month... and first month of suffering.
haha.

good times, bad times.

2009-12-30T15:19:00.000+08:00

Kieron Williamson, the 7 year old boy who did this.

I'm really truly impressed and inspired.

2009-12-28T01:54:00.000+08:00

the way up to heaven

2009-12-26T07:08:00.003+08:00

POST XMAS

2009-12-26T04:19:00.001+08:00

strange idea, strange shoes.

i fell down wearing something of these height today.

2009-12-26T04:14:00.001+08:00

it's a simple idea, but very well executed. nice isn't it?

p/s: what is this ribbon called huh anyone? seems like there's no official name for it.

2009-12-15T07:28:00.004+08:00

as i grow older,

i learnt that beauty is much bigger than what my preconception of beauty was. to me, human beauty is simply appreciating a certain pleasing unique feature that every person has, be it a mole a sharp nose or full lips. you don't have to be model thin, you don't have to have a barbie doll face, you don't have to heaps of muscles popping everywhere (although that happens, i'll explain why later on). you just need to have something that you yourself is appreciative of.

many times he has always tell me that i like everything i see. it's like asking me why half of the cup is filled/full. i'm just appreciative of the smaller details. but being appreciative does not mean i'm obesessed with it... it just means that in the light of that moment i saw something that i did not notice and i realise and acknowledge the beauty of it.

back to muscles. being generically prettier gets you more glance from strangers on the street, but if only everyone will start finding beauty in each and everyone around them, maybe being happy would be easier now. having observed tons of models now, some models do have that certain feature that made them stand out; and on the street, not many would be so appreciative of it. upon learning that they are a model, most people go "oh so beautiful" like the hypocrites they are.

Kenosha (her lips so full!) Robinson is a black albino female model.

wouldn't the world be boring if everyone looks pretty much like barbie and ken?

2009-12-14T02:42:00.000+08:00

the modern tree house.

2009-12-14T02:20:00.007+08:00

lovely weather, lovely event, lovely company.

surprise of the day

2009-12-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

commercial gimmick, but i like it.

tags: sasha, liya and shalom harlow

2009-12-03T08:11:00.000+08:00

how havaianas are made.

2009-12-03T06:00:00.001+08:00

Do you recall your worst day in business? Have you ever felt like giving up?

No. Sometimes you lose a job because you fight so hard for it, and you think you are going to win. But you lose the competition and you indeed feel a bit down. But I think sometimes those are even good signs for you: what you lose it today, you will get it back tomorrow. Something will always come back. I believe in the life of vacuum. When there is a vacuum, things will comes in. Like Lao-tzu said, at that point of void lies the utility, if this cup is full of wine, no new wine will come in, so you always need to pour away the water. And then new thing will come in, and new spirit will come in. So if you lose, it's OK. Maybe it's good, and you should lose it because it's not meant for you to get the job. And every time I'm "empty", something comes in. I have never felt like giving up. Seriously I never did. And I even never get a headache in my life. I feel that I am a bit blessed. There must be something up there, who looks after you. I am not religious, and I believe I am very spiritual.

- Mr Tang Guan Bee in an interview.

This made my day brighter amidst a period of downpour.

2009-11-27T04:16:00.002+08:00

selfish love.

2009-11-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

being creative. is subjective. being subjective is biased. it's based (pardon the pun but ironically if you put an i into the word it becomes biased) on a collective mass approval that is sitting on a heap of hyprocrisy and culture all rolled into one.

being expressive. is difficult. being appreciated is tough. being loved is obligation.

Once there was a tree...and she loved a little boy.

Let the video speak. (breathless voice and strange music irrelevant)

2009-11-13T03:24:00.002+08:00

my mind got interupted by a commercial.

the thing about these commercials is that even when they seemed genuinely concerned about you they are in fact simply selling their products to you. very much like reality and human nature indeed.

a moment in time is hard to capture, and time always slips away and leaves me stranded. it could be a calling for me, as to what i still have not figure it out.

as to what is good design, perhaps. what is reality and what is not, what are people's common perception and what is unacceptable. humans' common notion conceives the reality, and the reality is not always the right thing to stick your guns for.

i have not wrote about my personal life for a very long time, for the fact that the facts are not worth writing about anymore. as my memories of various people dissipates, i can only hope that when i see them the feeling i used to have for them will still be there. not talking about anyone in general, but you know when you see someone you have not seen in a long time and it's hard to react...

2009-11-06T23:31:00.001+08:00

my vote of best dressed outfit at the halloween goes to... Jessica Alba, coming in as Dora the Explorer.

Moms always have a sense of humour.

2009-10-19T00:04:00.001+08:00

2009-10-17T02:58:00.002+08:00

what is the difference between em1, em2 and em3; express, normal, normal technical; pure science, combined science; higher chinese; poly, jc and uni students?

a lot.

2009-10-07T22:38:00.003+08:00

i WILL NOT suffer at work.

grrr.

had one of those confusing first meeting for my new project at orchard road... and it was, confusing.

anyway, i'm super excited about my first big project, which MOE ppl are going to move in in a few days time. have been working my guts out for this one for quite some time now.

a year ago i would have never been able to imagine this, that the things i do will be built one day and people are going to be affected by it. a year ago i would have never been able to imagine talking to real clients and doing the project all by myself and making sure everything is done properly.

it is a lot of work. it is endless hours of meeting. i often had meetings that would stretch from 3pm to 9pm and i would have gastric. i often had to make quick decisions to make assurance that the design can be built and it can be done.

sometimes the responsibility is too heavy for me. sometimes i wish i was just a student and i didn't have to comply with any authorities to get my design built.

and sometimes i have to imagine myself caught in a fire and looking for the exit sign just so i know where to place it.

it is just the beginning. i'm uber excited about the archifest09!

2009-10-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

if god is in the details,

does that mean that i do not have to worry about it?

i know god will take care of it for me.

2009-09-22T02:24:00.002+08:00

i'm very relieved and deeply appreciative of a extra day into the long weekend we had, even though i have to go back to work on sat to do some stuff.

currently not feeling 'it' again, after one week of restless sleep. the best sleep i've had was the one at bintan. quality sleep. could be the bed. HMMM.

recently there is this dream that was quite strange, it happened for 3 times in a row over this week (fri, sat and sun). i dreamt that i was being chased around the neighbourhood.

this kind of dream has been one of those disturbing kind for me since i was young. i can vividly remember one of it. That instance i was being chased around the neighbourhood again and i hid in one of the stranger's house in their bedroom. Till today being wide awake i'm slightly creeped out.

Or that instance when i brought my stinky lovin' pillow out and sat in the bed with the pillow.

Or when i fell down and woke up with a shock. (This is accountable for most of my 'nightmares', together with the being chased part)

Hope i finally get some quality sleep tonight.

2009-09-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of a gold f480... somewhere out there.

2009-09-17T00:29:00.004+08:00

frank lloyd wright and lego. makes me wanna.... buy and build it.

speaking of frank, i love the frank gehry fish! it's probably the happiest purchase of the year. (jj starts blowing air kisses)

2009-09-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

i think i'm married... to work.

still in the honeymoon period. i saw my 'future boss' just now but on second thoughts i wouldn't want MOD anymore. hahaha.

thinking of what i have to do tomorrow gets me high and fired up. i think i will learn new things tomorrow.

i think i'm crazy. hahaha.

2009-09-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

my favorite photo from bintan!!!

heh. heh. heh.

2009-09-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

a present from after-morning.

the little things my colleagues do for me lets me know that they love me very much. hahaha. this was after i told them i fell asleep while talking to the boss at the site meeting.

other than slogging my guts out and lack of DESIGNING (hmmm dangerous word) i have no complains at all about work.

2009-09-06T15:16:00.000+08:00

Not exactly busy on weekends, but looking at the blogger template turns me off now, with all the error on page and the disability of the picture upload button.

Fucked up.

2009-08-12T20:41:00.001+08:00

gaaaaaaa i hate blogger is it having some problems now?

2009-08-02T03:03:00.000+08:00

i didn't change, your idea of me changed.

or did i?

my dream is so far away, i want to achieve it so badly. chasing after the means to the ends is silly, but i have everything i want now.

2009-07-23T00:47:00.002+08:00

the shittiest part about sleeping at work, is sleeping at the toilet and knowing that you can get away with it but you sabotaged yourself by over sleeping till an hour and having your colleague climb in through the window to 'rescue' you and the rest of the colleagues standing outside worrying about you fainting inside or something.

today's event marks the most unconceivable expression i have on my face.

the only happy part was that i was in jeans and sitting on the floor and i wasn't peeing till i fell asleep.

2009-07-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

nicoletta ceccoli

strange and beautiful, it takes a certain kind of perversion to connect to it. unnaturally i'm enthralled.

2009-07-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

I’ve been told that destiny is a big joke,
Promises everything,
then leaves you broke.
It looks like happiness is so close at hand,
Then you reach out and are left with nothing but sand.
And yet someone told me …

2009-07-11T18:17:00.000+08:00

the little chatterbox is very adorable

2009-07-08T14:40:00.002+08:00

jj says hello from work :D

the busy period is slightly over. so i'm happyily blogging after lunch. anyway, was pretty disappointed about the cancellation of class outing later. too bad my PR skills not good enough!

can't wait for the weekend to come, where we'll have our first chalet (after so many years of procrastination) and i really can't wait to go ferrell residences viewing. technically i'm not buying but it's good to go for nice houses viewing. i have someone dear to thank for that trip ;)

it's wed but i can't can't can't wait for the weekend.

2009-07-03T22:28:00.005+08:00

maybe.

i'm having happy thoughts looking at facebook and seeing photos of my close friends now. then a creepy little thought came unto me.

my dear readers, what do you think of friends of your partner? many has said i drink evian water a lot, which come to think of it, yeah, maybe i am. (evian - naive, geddit?) i just feel that relationships within a relationship shouldn't end if a relationship end. it just mean that we were patronising each other's time.

it's even harder to be friends with your boyfriend's friends after your relationship with him ends. to me, that's the difficult part to accept.

as i grow older i'm finding it harder to express myself, to the point i stutter at work when i'm nervous! fyi work is very busy, have been OT everyday. i make it a point to do my best to manage my time. it's pretty exciting, really.

2009-06-29T23:45:00.005+08:00

still can't get over MJ's death.. don't know why but it affected me pretty much. rip MJ, i will always remember you for your good ways.

meanwhile, work is fine, i'm learning as much as i can and my colleagues are nice. went to the alley bar for the interns' farewell and we had a 'ball of time'.

'TA!' hahaha.

my 'mentor' is the red bunny. too bad he left the company alrd!

poor ku was framed.

2009-06-28T11:35:00.006+08:00

my old photos. the second one came as a surprise actually, when mr chuxiang upload it in facebook. frankly i really don't remember where it came from, maybe it's the cecelia BBQ at chuxiang's place.

but, wtf? YOU SEE CHINYEE AND ME. hahahah!!!

the first photo too, quite funny ah.

recent photo. i don't really take a lot of photos, but i like to take photos of objects. i'm also suffering from the flabby-arms-syndrome.

P/S: meiliang u still look the same siah!!!

2009-06-27T14:29:00.001+08:00

tell me how to go out, when i'm informed at the last min!

2009-06-27T13:53:00.001+08:00

the sad news of his death has affected me at work all day yesterday. it's always the least expected people who dies!

2009-06-19T15:03:00.001+08:00

back from photoshoot~~~

collection 3

i'm particularly pleased with this photo.speaking of which, i'm saving for a new camera. after all, mine is about 6 years old. haha.

2009-06-19T13:36:00.003+08:00

gulp. this beautiful necklace. from the etsy store.

a girl can only dream about it.

meanwhile, check out what I'm doing on http://happybowday.livejournal.com/ !

2009-06-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

can you spot my word? haha. it should be (fill in the blanks) to find, because i couldn't stand facing the fish any longer in photoshop. gaaaah. but i do have a concept about this picture. it's about LUCK.

junhao, i let you know a little secret. being the ever realistic person i am, i do believe in my own luck sometimes but i just don't rely on it in case the luck run away.

my concept is about being lucky when you least expect it. it's like the word in the picture, can't really see the word in the ugly fish but once you see it you will feel different. or maybe you can compare it to the phrase, "the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow after the rain".

being lucky is a general word. it does not dedicate itself particularly to wealth. in my case, i got a job, a job offer and some news about the new university which made me really really happy. and a little bit hopeful.

being lucky is also sometimes being blessed by 'mortal angels'. friends who secretly support you. well, not really secretly, but they do things unexpectedly. like how jianping bought the cookies i have been looking for but were too stingy to buy it at 7eleven when i went back to my house to get the letter i made for him. he didn't want me to pay. and another particular girl. your simple gesture made me grateful.

it's simple gestures, that make me so happy. and lucky.

p/s: i slept at 11 pm and woke up at 7.45am. it was one of the loveliest days i've had in a long time. so i'm going to bed now and do the same for tomorrow! no more guilt when i wake up.

2009-06-13T16:27:00.001+08:00

am gawking over stella mccartney's resort 2010.

2009-06-10T05:22:00.003+08:00

I LOVE BJORK.

she is a piece of living art.

2009-06-10T03:05:00.002+08:00

a conversation going in my mind, a dialouge by 2 small voices.

voice 1: sometimes i wish i have friends who would initiate helping me out. is that term called caring?

voice 2: yes. it's nice to have friends caring for you, but isn't it too demanding of you to expect them to panter to your whims?

voice 1: yeah, that's why this conversation is existing now.

voice 2: sometimes, it's better to be independent. you can't expect everyone to be there for you all the time. when you do things for yourself, and by yourself, a bittersweet kind of feeling emerge. bitter if you are lonely, sweet knowing that you accomplished it by yourself.

voice 1: i don't want to feel bitter about it.

i have came a long way. when i was in primary 3, there was a field trip organised by the community center. i badly wanted to go, but no matter how i plead, my mom wouldn't agree to bring me go.

"go alone."

so i did. that experience was some kind of bittersweet. most of all, i tasted my first reluctant independence.

thinking about it makes me want to laugh all over again. independence is vital. people come and go. one day your good friend may leave you (no, not me). one day your boyfriend may leave you (no, not me too). understanding yourself is important. seek solace and reflect upon yourself. i did that and i feel happier now.

2009-06-08T00:38:00.003+08:00

change is a broad topic. it is not just a word. alphabetically speaking, change is just a message to symbolise the actions of the verb. if we do not understand the meaning of change, the word can prove fearful for many.

'change' is subjective. it can have many different meanings to many different people. personally, 'change' is associated with bad memories. bad experiences. bad decisions. and it always involve the other people. 'you have changed so much, i can barely recognise you.'

i'm not talking about changing at face value. you know, those skin cleansing agents that go 'a new face, a new you?'. it's something deeper than that. and perhaps, it's something more innate, intimate, intuitive.

we change all the time. people change all the time. in the book 'who moved my cheese?', one of the little men discovered, 'if you do not change, you can become extinct.' i'm learning to accept that people do change, and i'm coming to terms with people not accepting people's changes. i'm sure it's for the better, and things will work it out for themselves.

do what you need to do, and the rest will do what it needs to be done by itself.

i change because i have to.

2009-06-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

taking a bow

2009-06-01T19:06:00.005+08:00

http://happybowday.livejournal.com/

happy bow day! an initiative set up by yip since she is not working and a certain ahemm! someone has been nagging about my 'tai-tai-ness'. (note: i am doing my best to get into my ideal firm, don't worry)

anyway i got too carried away making bows, so putting it to good use ;) please help me out here!

p/s: i have been procrastinating for a month about this project now, so if not now, then when?

p/p/s: mr ong is in perth now, my skin itchy for a few days already. i wonder what is he bringing home? a kangeroo? kola bear?

2009-06-01T18:46:00.004+08:00

i went to watch GOLDFINGER with meiliang, raina ad her bf, and their friend redzuan on friday. well it was pretty fun.. but the plot a bit chim ah, despite me reading up before going.

in the movie i fell in love with a particular house, made of wooden panelling and concrete. the form and proportions were perfect. and i can't find that picture damnnit.

2009-06-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

there were many things miss chia always tell me, but i will always remember what she told me - to strive, to seek and never to yield.

what she had told me on my graduation day had me welded up in tears. thank you for attending my graduation miss chia. i'm really touched.

at age 20, puberty really ends here.

2009-05-30T02:39:00.001+08:00

graduation day. my regret is forgetting to take photos with my parents and miss chia.

2009-05-30T02:16:00.001+08:00

shark pants from the sartorialist!

wakakkakaa i love unexpected humour.

'something got in your pants?'

2009-05-24T05:40:00.001+08:00

i really like lily's current album cover. simple, effective, creative!

2009-05-24T02:59:00.002+08:00

it's a huge irony that i wish that one day when i am walking in the street, with a stroke of good luck i'll find a f480 randomly and nobody will claim it.

it would even better if i win a brand new f480 or something. i still can't get over my phone.

2009-05-23T02:51:00.000+08:00

i understand that cities are not built overnight, great or little ones. :D

yes sire!

2009-05-19T06:54:00.002+08:00

my 'prom' entry was way overdue, just like my 'time of the month'.
anyway, here is one of my happy prom photos, with some of the gals.

in a curious way untold, everyone was dressed in a different genre (theme was 'fashion capital'), so nobody could really pin point who was really best dressed. my vote goes out to everyone, who went all the way to make a difference that night.

2009-05-18T01:44:00.001+08:00

the best kind of prizes are surprises! hahaha! - willy wonka

oh i so like johnny depp!

2009-05-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

went to jeff's 21st last night. happy birthday jeff!

well, it was a pyjamas party, and then i was one of the few people who came unattired. haha. my bad i didn't realise.. and then the painful part was when the rowdy boys repeatedly shoved balloons into his shorts and burst it. poor thing.

i saw the most unexpected person in the party. meiliang you will never guess!

didn't manage to join raina and friends for drinking in the end. oh well. i feel really bad about it.

2009-05-16T18:37:00.001+08:00

meet my lecturer.

freaking lookalike!

2009-05-14T04:40:00.000+08:00

huiyu baked this cake for her birthday. amazing siah! i also want to learn!!!

2009-05-12T04:05:00.000+08:00

2009-05-09T21:20:00.002+08:00

instead of attending huiyu's birthday party, i had to attend this workshop that meiliang, raina and me signed up for a week ago. apart from being late (half an hour), everything was nice and smooth. it's really nice to catch up with the both of them.

and it's comforting to know that pretty girls have their body flaws too. right meiliang? haha.

the few days spent at the jacuzzi taught me that too. so now, i'm not so unhappy about MY body issues anymore. because most girls have their own body issues! big or small. hahaha.

and i went home to BBQ. that's right, i took out my mother's charcoal pot to BBQ my satays. well, actually, technically not mine, it was the raw left overs in packs from JP's 21st birthday. BBQ-ing alone is pretty fun actually, you don't have to serve anyone else and the whole space is yours. while waiting i ventured into one of the sex and the city books. not so great as it turn out (the book, not the food). but nonetheless, i started packing up at 2.30 am and went to bed at 6.

because it was impromtu, i didn't had a grill to put the food on. i took my mom's metal plate filter and place it neatly on top of the hot pot. everything was fine, until when i start to scrap off the oily black bits from "grill". nah, didn't came off.

now i know why people always throw the grill away. mother, i won't do this again.

she threw her precious metal plate away. i'm guilt striken. but at least i got to BBQ 24 sticks. i ate about 20.

Pingping's 21st birthday
JP's party was.. a party pooper. A certain man had got him drunk before midnight, and by then we had to 'dismantle' the birthday boy and put him to sleep. so the rest of the night was spent without the birthday boy. we played with the birthday boy's newly acquired WII, and it was quite fun. apart from a certain mr ong who kept hogging the WII remote. and we played bowling.

i have no fate with bowling!

and there was a game of truth or dare going on downstairs. a mixture of JP's secondary school friends and DID pandas. ahemm. there is something important to be learnt when playing the game.

do not play if you have things you are not comfortable with telling. for guys, don't play if you are wearing loose or ugly underwear. the girls genuinely don't like to see the goodie in the bag. hahaha!

so i waited for the birthday boy to wake up and i helped him with cleaning up (the chalet, not him). boy, there are so many things to be cleared! and washed. right now i'm having flaky hands because of the detergent.

i would like to think it's a gift (for having flaky hands after using detergent), because if i have a husband next time he would have to do all the washing and not me. unless he has flaky hands too.

2009-05-09T02:59:00.001+08:00

H1N1 scare, as pictured by aaron ong.

2009-05-07T04:32:00.005+08:00

all good things come in packages.

like my inspiration. haha.

adapted from my diploma in interior design, the very essence of craft making have now make its way into my mind and hands, and turn into this

like this stella macartney dress i found on net-a-porter.com

her inspiration this season? clouds.

i just saw a nice mtv about clouds, it's sung by 'the radio dept'. the song is called pulling our weight. pretty melocholical, but that's the way i am too (:

watch pulling our weight here

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=18731908

2009-05-05T01:32:00.002+08:00

went flyer a few days back, amid a series of lucky events.

my daddy came along! he was more excited than me. so aaron, aaron's family, phong, yuhui, daddy and me got onto the cabin, among a crowd of gappling tourists. the 4 of us headed straight for the seats.

well. it was boringly nice. the highlight of the flyer was the top top top. and the model of the city when we were reaching the bottom. if we all have a lot of money and the right equipments, we will be making very nice models!

i don't feel like blogging anymore, somebody just cut off my energy a moment ago.

2009-05-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

www.stylesightings.com

i like the guy's outfit. but not the beard.

2009-04-30T22:22:00.004+08:00

saw some pretty suits on anthropologie.

2009-04-30T22:21:00.001+08:00

i didn't realise the magnitude of the swine problem. must stop eating bak kut teh from now on.

2009-04-30T21:21:00.004+08:00

i'm grinning from ear to ear now.

it's one of those few days when i'm home early (8.30pm). haha. usually the day is considered complete to me only after i hear the sounds of the roller gates coming down from the shops.

and it's one of those days everything seems to be going well. the thrill of getting back my laptop. it's undescribable. wooohoooo!

my feeling of the moment.

ever since i have been handicapped of my phone and laptop, the feeling leaves me numb. and then slowly a zen attitude evolves. i would even say that both are extensions of myself.

digressing, whenever i start blogging i always find a loss of words to describe my things. words jumble up, sentences are incoherrent &c. the whole perfect paragraph only comes to me when i lay down on my bed before i fall asleep. what a pity.

i would say it's a bit greedy to ask for a phone now since my laptop is back. so i'll wait. i think.

afternote: i'm very happy, i love the blazer, i love the marble cake, i love the juice magazine, i love the curry rice, and i love all my shoes... what a material girl!

2009-04-29T23:09:00.003+08:00

WOOHOOO!!!

i went on a retreat today. it was as good as a holiday. the panoramic view, yoga, spa, suana, jacuzzi, whirlpool, gym. and i'm going to do this till i get the fucking NUS letter!

WOOHOOO!!!

but i slipped on my own water and fell down on my butt. it was so painful, the staff have to help me get up. http://www.paiseh.com/

p/s: i went alone. because only got one pass. but, it's little things like this that brings to my awareness that i'm independent.

2009-04-29T23:07:00.001+08:00

2009-04-24T06:26:00.005+08:00

ahahhaa i just found this on the net.

burger king has a perfume (released not too long ago on valentine's day); it's called FLAME.

funny shit. no prizes for guessing what it smells like though.

i seriously wouldn't want to smell this on my man. meat meets meat? (now try saying that ten times, fast)

'behold the scent of seduction, with a hint of flame broiled meat.' meat smell on meat! now i'm beginning to fantasize how it smells like on a man after a 2 hour gym session.

find out all about FLAME at http://www.firemeetsdesire.com/

p/s: if all the brands start to come up with their own perfume, what would it be like? mediacorp should come up with one called channel no. 5.

2009-04-22T19:08:00.002+08:00

call me crazy...

but i'm suddenly missing the folk dancing we had in secondary school!

i wish i'm as fair as sophie ellis bextor. she's totally gorgeous.

note to self: MUST STOP WHINING.

2009-04-22T04:25:00.002+08:00

hello,

how have you been doing? i hope you are doing well. i know you are better now, and that life is still going on. i wish i have the courage to pick up the phone, call you and say these things to you. 'let's meet up, and let's do the things we all once did, and the things that made us once happy.' i miss your voice, and i miss your dynamic personality. i miss the times we had together.

these are the words i want to say to so many people. the people that were once in my life. and i was once in your life. i just don't have the courage.

2009-04-22T03:56:00.002+08:00

my mother so happy.

special thanks to someone who made my day. and theirs.

not my birthday lah. why can't i have 2 birthdays a year? then i will ask for a phone. :(

2009-04-22T03:42:00.002+08:00

i just had the feeling that everything 'valuable' i own is about to be taken away from me. the important ones lah.

well, soon at least.

after a 2 hour phone conversation tussle with the HP manager, i managed to reduce half of my laptop's damage costs. well, not too good i would say. JJ does better. the damage costs added up to 170dollars, just to replace a motherboard. mother****ing-board. i just replaced it for 400plus less than 8 months ago.

guess what? i'm carrying a vintage now. nokia3310. lost my phone about a week ago. contract not up, till next year september. woohoo!

my dad casually mentioned that i should sell my laptop away after repair. so you see, yip ji ji was a happy girl a week ago.

p/s: when it rains it pours. a few entries ago i mentioned i was using my mom's phone. it died on me too. thus the 3310.

2009-04-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

the war starts tomorrow.

i swear i'm going to wring the HP manager's neck dry.

2009-04-16T03:00:00.004+08:00

GO WILD

something i helped out audrey with for her 'GO WILD' photoshoot. backstage editing took place too.

2009-04-16T02:56:00.002+08:00

it has been a bad week for me.

for my personal belongings, i mean. i lost my phone, my laptop's motherboard is spoilt (i suspect it must have been burnt because HP is always so HOT), the charger for my old phone is spoilt, not to mention my beloved phone's microphone is spoilt, thus people on the other end can't hear what i'm saying when i talk.

what can be worse? i'm safeguarding ALL the things i have at the moment (wallet esp.) tightly.

2009-04-16T02:52:00.002+08:00

How to get an A in SMU

makes me wonder if i have met such people in my life!

2009-04-12T01:37:00.002+08:00

cats in town

this is a must-watch by andrew lloyd webber (the bloke who wrote phantom in the opera). i hope i can go! that is, after buying my phone and repairing my laptop.

if cats by now have not ring a bell in your head, listen to the song :)

2009-04-12T01:19:00.001+08:00

he is the first person i see wear leather jacket so nice!

not at all threatening ;)

image from sartorialist

2009-04-10T02:27:00.000+08:00

know your friends; and your enemies.

2009-04-09T02:07:00.000+08:00

i lost something too precious to me. and it goes way beyond my phone. sigh.

2009-04-08T16:30:00.001+08:00

VANS slip-on

I WANT THE WATERMELON ONE!!! hahaha so cute! i will totally wear it!

2009-04-08T15:19:00.000+08:00

fuck it craig david's concert is tonight at zirca and i'm heading clarke quay too.
LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!

2009-04-08T00:54:00.007+08:00

KUKUP PART 1

BACK FROM KUKUP! heehee. phong why never go wasted!!! he should have been there.

to summarize the two days is not easy at all. let me try though.

met at 6.15am in kranji, followed by very looong bus trip to kukup. then we ferried, kelong-ed, ferried, lunch-ed, kukup-ed. then karaoke and mahjong-ed, dog and cat brawl (drama this one), and bbq (people cook for us somemore), then it was the fireworks, and more singing and games playing. ahbao and me finished the night with girl talking, and in the morning we took the ferry back to the dining area to have our lunch. and it was CITYSQUARE and home-d.

there were so many buses we took, i nearly vomit several times. the longest bus trip being aourn 1.5hours. the roads were too rocky lah that's why vomit feeling.

waiting for the bus

cheekeong and xindi

looks like those coach ads

weiqiang and angeline

you see ahbao at the back. hahaha.

yuhui was my bus partner for all of the buses and she let me lean on her to sleep.

thank you! :)

aaron was also very nice to let me play his gameboy to distract my mind from vomitting.

thank you too!

our lunch area for the 2 days.

all the seafood lah, what else hahaha.

pirate ship (complete with nice pirates)

there was this uncle who was at first nice to us, then when he started touting it got irritating.

while waiting for pirate ship

ruiting and ah qing.

two fingers in yuhui's nose.
don't know why my teeth so yellow in this picture.

robin and audrey

digressing robin was very very nice to let me have his dizziness medicine on the way home so i won't feel like vomitting. he even remind me to take. touched touched.

thank you robin!

pirate trying to sell things

uninterested buyers' face

kelong!!!

this is all the photos i have currently, but we saw loads of fishes in the kelong. the school of fishes are segregated by the wooden planks, so in all these different squares we have a large variety of fishes.

i was thinking, should i continue with the rest of the entry but i thought not, since i haven't get all the photos. well, maybe next entry then!

2009-04-04T02:48:00.002+08:00

I'M GOING TO KUKUP TOMORROW!

i'm really excited because this is something big for a daddy's girl! heehee. i can't wait i can't wait.

p/s: tioman's monitor lizards are really damn gross.

2009-04-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

2.10am

it's the third day my classmates have went to tioman island. so sad. i'm stuck alone in singapore with no one to talk to on msn. so sad.

i'm consolling myself by counting down the days till they come back. and today is the day they will return! :D

i now look forward to the DINNER & DANCE, and the KUKUP trip. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.