!Wednesday, August 29, 2007
@ 5:49 PM
courage
i was staring into space thinking about my lil heartaches and then i thought of how timid i am... i do wish for courage many a time, the courage to turn away from pain, the courage to walk away from time. all i need is just that one little step to get it going. i guess i'm a lil bit further than that lil step now, but i do feel so wishy-washy like charlie brown.
creating success... make it happen, not let it happen.
i went for a bellydance class yesterday... i think i've really found my calling! that is the time when i don't feel under pressure under tons of fat-free craze ladies, and dance away freely to the music and have a good laugh about it. my dear ahbao and vans came along too, and we kept laughing. but we dance good! xy overslept. badbad ;)
you know what, i have often thought about how going through puberty makes girls relook on their self esteem and self love. while self love is a very vague term to describe gazillion of things, one of it would include taking a rain check on how much we appreciate ourselves and accept ourselves for who we are. finding someone who loves and accepts you for who you are and not someone they want you to be is important too. i will always remember it in my heart.
philosophy.
i grew an interest to philosophy 2 years ago and interestingly enough, were made to study it this year in one of my modules. while my thoughts weren't as profound as james's, i'm occasionally trapped in the brain by one question. what is the world to me, am i part of everything that exist as an entirety or am i just an individual unique being that is just me in this world and the world is made up of everything unique?
i supposed we could combine the two and says that "i'm an unique being and i'm part of this world as a whole". but that wouldn't make sense as much as asking "is black or white nicer?" and the answer is "grey". methinks "i'm an unique being", at least in singapore anyways.
if i were to marry, i would think that a tattoo of a ring etched in my finger would makes the saying "till death do us apart" will make more sense. ahhh. love is a strange thing. so is jj.
how many fingers do you have???
8! and 2 thumbs!
They say the devil's water, it ain't so sweet
You don't have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while