i doubt i will find it anyway. what is beautiful? beauty is in the eye of the beholder... as many people had said. in my humble opinion, beauty is like the universal truth, something that everybody is searching, yet nobody can grasp it and it is there. like ghosts perhaps?

like love, which is like a second skin wrapping around everybody, everybody feels it, but nobody can describe it accurately. or at least, nobody can give a "standard" answer.

tattoo, if not done with consideration, can end up like an approval stamp code on a pig's skin or some massive pathetic effort to decorate the body soaked in teen angst. when i was younger, i wanted to tattoo, pierce and do alot of things too. it's better to think it over before tattooing something. if it doesn't turn out well it could very well end up like a scar, only that this scar is a choice.

whenever i look at those precious moments figurines in the store, i always look at the message the figure is portraying. and it's all about love. love is giving, friendship is in the bag, etc.etc.

can love be endless giving? selfless giving?

perhaps it's about balance. carine taught me "give and take". something that is so valuable to me, this phrase takes me way many years into my teenhood. but finding the balance is tricky. i should think it will take me a lifetime to find "balance" and never find it. and nobody has the right "balance". i used to think junhao has it. but no more now. he's only human.

and when one is finding the "balance", one is actually comparing it to something else to be able to conclude it as "balanced". thus, the seek for the universal truth comes in again.