change is a broad topic. it is not just a word. alphabetically speaking, change is just a message to symbolise the actions of the verb. if we do not understand the meaning of change, the word can prove fearful for many.

'change' is subjective. it can have many different meanings to many different people. personally, 'change' is associated with bad memories. bad experiences. bad decisions. and it always involve the other people. 'you have changed so much, i can barely recognise you.'

i'm not talking about changing at face value. you know, those skin cleansing agents that go 'a new face, a new you?'. it's something deeper than that. and perhaps, it's something more innate, intimate, intuitive.

we change all the time. people change all the time. in the book 'who moved my cheese?', one of the little men discovered, 'if you do not change, you can become extinct.' i'm learning to accept that people do change, and i'm coming to terms with people not accepting people's changes. i'm sure it's for the better, and things will work it out for themselves.

do what you need to do, and the rest will do what it needs to be done by itself.

i change because i have to.