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!Wednesday, June 10, 2009

@ 3:05 AM

a conversation going in my mind, a dialouge by 2 small voices.

voice 1: sometimes i wish i have friends who would initiate helping me out. is that term called caring?

voice 2: yes. it's nice to have friends caring for you, but isn't it too demanding of you to expect them to panter to your whims?

voice 1: yeah, that's why this conversation is existing now.

voice 2: sometimes, it's better to be independent. you can't expect everyone to be there for you all the time. when you do things for yourself, and by yourself, a bittersweet kind of feeling emerge. bitter if you are lonely, sweet knowing that you accomplished it by yourself.

voice 1: i don't want to feel bitter about it.

i have came a long way. when i was in primary 3, there was a field trip organised by the community center. i badly wanted to go, but no matter how i plead, my mom wouldn't agree to bring me go.

"go alone."

so i did. that experience was some kind of bittersweet. most of all, i tasted my first reluctant independence.

thinking about it makes me want to laugh all over again. independence is vital. people come and go. one day your good friend may leave you (no, not me). one day your boyfriend may leave you (no, not me too). understanding yourself is important. seek solace and reflect upon yourself. i did that and i feel happier now.

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